Thursday, November 21, 2013

15 Months

I can't believe our baby is 15 MONTHS old! What?!?! When did that happen? I was just telling Drew last night that I'm starting to forget her as a baby. We have tons of pictures and some videos but I'm having a hard time remembering specific events if we don't have them on video. It's making me all sad! My baby is growing up! 

I'm loving where we are at though. Abbigail learns a new word or two every day! Seriously, I think she will be talking in full sentences by next week! ;) 

I decided to video her talking to me because well, like I said, without a video I forget things pretty easily and she sounds so darn cute when she talks! Enjoy! 

(Also, I recorded this on the iPad, so the quality isn't the greatest. I hope you'll forgive me.)

... and some more just because she is so dang cute! 

Tuesday, November 19, 2013


We're all waiting for something. Right? Some are waiting for graduation to arrive, the right job to come along, to have a baby, see family, etc. We're all waiting for something.  And can I tell you something? 


I've heard time and time again that "patience is a virtue." Well I stink at having patience. I want what I want and I want it RIGHT NOW! The hardest part for me is that I want a good thing! In fact, I felt inspiration from God that this was the right thing. So why do I have to wait for it?! 

+Having children is a really good thing. So why does it take some couples years to conceive a child and why are some couples not able to conceive at all?

+Having a career and supporting a family is a really good thing. So why are so many people "jobless" and why is it so hard to find a job? 

+Spending time with family is a really good thing! So why does time seem to pass by the slowest when you are counting down the days until you can see your family?

This has been pressing on my mind quite heavily. We live in a world offering fast food, instant messaging, WiFi internet, smart phones, on demand movies and immediate answers to almost any question we may have. We want immediate results and instant gratification.

President Dieter F. Uchtdorf spoke on this very subject. He said, 

"Patience is a purifying process that refines understanding, deepens happiness, focuses action, and offers hope for peace."

He continues,

"Often the most difficult times of our lives are essential building blocks that form the foundation of our character and pave the way to future opportunity, understanding, and happiness."

Although this is true, it doesn't make the wait any easier! Does it? 

One thing I do know is that no matter our circumstance, Jesus Christ has felt our pain and afflictions! He absolutely knows exactly how we are feeling. No matter how long or difficult the wait may be, we are not alone! Our Savior understands. We can turn to him and he will "give us rest." (Matt 11:28)

"Patience means to abide in faith, knowing that sometimes it is in the waiting rather than in the receiving that we grow the most."

Monday, November 11, 2013

Here's the deal..

Okay, so funny, not so funny story: My SD card in my camera is freaking out on me and my card reader won't recognize it.

So currently, I am trying to figure out how to save all of my pictures and get them off my card and onto my computer! 

... and I need to get a new SD card! So bear with me as a figure this mess out! Forgive me for not posting! Once I save my pictures you can expect quite a few catch up posts including Halloween and when Ryker came to town! {Yeah, I'm that far behind!} 

Thanks for still reading!

 + Oh and if any of you guys are computer/camera geniuses and have any ideas to help me... I would really appreciate it! 

Wednesday, November 6, 2013


Last night I laid in bed for almost three hours before I was able to fall asleep! I hate nights like that! My mind was going crazy and had like a Bajillion things going through it at the same time! One of the thoughts on my mind last night was that I am struggling. I am a mother, wife, sister, daughter, teacher, friend, cousin, example, etc. That is a lot to be right? I guess I was just feeling overwhelmed last night. What am I doing in my life to fulfill each one of those roles? Am I doing enough? I came to the conclusion that I am not. 

I'm a mother. I love my daughter and take care of her but we probably watch too much TV and eat too much junk food. I need to give more of my attention to her and less to social media. 
I'm a wife. I love my husband and I tell him that but I could probably be better at showing him that I love him. I should be more consistent about making healthy dinners and keeping the house picked up! {I've been especially struggling with cleaning the house lately}
I'm a sister. I love my sisters and I think they know that but why don't I call them more?! When we all lived at home we were kinda forced to talk to each other and sure we fought quite a bit, but I knew what was going on in their life. My older sister was sick for almost a whole week and I didn't even know about it until she posted about it on her blog and my younger sister just went to Homecoming. I heard she had a good time, but I haven't even called her to see how it went. 
I'm a daughter. My mother is such a great example to me and she has been my whole life! We talk on the phone quite often but do I show her how much I appreciate her? Do I send her little notes in the mail or call just to tell her I love her? 
I'm a teacher. I obviously have the responsibility to teach Abbigail and help her grow and develop. However, currently I also have the calling of "nursery leader" in my ward. I have really learned to love the sweet children I work with! They know I love them and I think we all really enjoy our time together on Sundays. But I have so much room for improvement. Instead of looking at the manual on Sunday morning, I need to prepare for my lesson all week long. Two of my girls had birthdays last month and I had NO idea. I could have brought them little treats to make them feel special, but I didn't. 

I could go on and on, but you get the idea? I have every intention of being better, but where do I even start?! I feel like I need to change SO much about myself and I feel so overwhelmed. I finally fell asleep last, woke up and this was still weighing heavily on my mind. I decided to turn to the scriptures and conference talks! They always seem to ease my mind. I found a talk given by Elder David A. Baxter titled "Overcoming Feelings of Inadequacy." Obviously, this was exactly what I needed to read. In his talk he clearly states: 

You're Better Than You Think You Are! 

 "When things go wrong in our lives, it is easy to lose all sense of perspective. We forget our divine inheritance, when we should remember that we come from heavenly parents who love us. We are impatient for instant solutions, when often it is the passage of time that will allow things to work out. We ignore or downplay our strengths and abilities, just at the time we should be recognizing and applying them."

So that's what I'm going to do! I need to stop thinking that I am simply "not good enough!" That is a lie!  I am a daughter of God! I am beautiful, smart, determined, strong, reliable, loyal and I am more than enough! I need to strengthen my relationship with my Heavenly Father and my Savior! God has called me to each one of these roles! I know I can turn to him and he will help me to feel more confident and able to fulfill the roles I have! 

Has anyone else struggled with feelings of inadequacy?
What have you done to overcome those feelings?

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